God.....all i want is for my friends to be happy. thats all i want. i hope with everything that i have that bryan is ok. God i pray he's alright. i really dont care about whats up with me now just as long as bryan is ok. and just as long as my family and friends are happy. just as long as they're happy.

Friendship

well.. this weekend i stayed at my friend abby's house. i kinda needed the break from everything.we went to this church thing that was pretty fun and i saw someone there i hadn't seen for a long time. but anyway....today we went to church and the sermon or whatever you call it was about friendship. idk for the most part i got what was being said and it touched me deeply so much that i was in tears a few times. made me think abotu everything thats been going on with me emotionally and how ive built this wall around me. how what i need most is true friends, friends that are there for me during my time of need. how i need to work on being a better friend, and pretty much how i need people there for me now b/c what im dealing with emotionally now is far more bigger than me. that i need to talk to someone if i want to feel better and stop bottlling things up.