This is my comment for Anisas entry on her blog. I suggest you read her entry before reading my comment so you can gain a better "overall" understanding of what we are talking about. heres her link... http://itsonlyaphaze.blogspot.com/ um and heres my comment...
Omg Anisa. Your right. When you think of marriage it’s like this whole big thing. It's like "long distance relationship". It not a big thing but people make it a big thing that the word just holds such a heavy meaning. When I think of marriage I think of it as two people meeting each other and feeling in their soul that this is their match. Two people who complete each other. When I get married I want it to be with someone I love with all my heart. With someone I’d die for. With someone that when I'm near them there’s no other place I want to be. And when I’m away from them their the only person I want to be with. I want that feeling when you just want to be with him so much. Like you just want to fuse together with that person. That’s how I think of like your wedding band. It’s like a symbol of a never-ending bond between two people. When I marry someone I want to feel like my love for him is never ending. But I also understand how two people can just "fall out of love" and that terrifies me the most. I’m so afraid of divorce that I know it’s going to take me a looong time to get married. I know that if I get married, I want to only have to do it once. And with someone I could spend my life with and not worry about "waking up to that person everyday" or "only having sex with that one person" plus when I think of marriage and relationships for that matter I think of mine being special. I don’t really like the whole "rules" thing that goes with relationships. Those set of unwritten laws. I don’t like that b/c I know I’m the kind of person who wants to be allowed to do certain things. And I’m willing to allow my "partner" (lol) to do certain things. I kind of don’t understand that "oh I don’t want you going to strip clubs" thing. I think its stupid. In fact I'd probably go with you. That way I know your not doing anything. Plus, well anyway, I don’t see what's so bad about it. I don’t know. When I think of me going back in time, meeting 50 cent, and convincing him to marry me and our marriage together. I think of it being well great. Oh I love 50 cent. Woo. Anyway. Even when I think of marrying Frankie Gotti. I imagine going through a lot and gaining a real understanding if who the person is and then marrying the person. I know that I might not be ready to marry anyone till like my 30s, mostly my late 30's. Because I don’t understand getting married in your 20s because your still living your life. In your 20s, you are finally on your own, having fun, and building a life for yourself. You have enough to worry about, with you now having to adjust to living on your own. Why rush and have to deal with also learning to live with another person at the same time. Plus you are trying to build a career. It’s a lot to add building a life with your husband to it. I think by my late 30's I would have things figured out. Plus if you get married in your late 30's you would have had plenty of time to understand the person, gone through enough with this person to figure out if you want to be with him for the rest of your life and had enough time to live together to see if you guys are compatible in living together. I’d hate to rush and then have to divorce over little things like "why cant you just put down the toilet seat" "why cant you just aim at the toilet" why cant you just fill the dirty dishes with water so the food wont harden" "why cant you help around the house" etc. Lol. Plus I want to have time to figure out what we have to work on. I’m terrified of divorce. I never want to divorce. I think I’m kind of more afraid of that then dieing or going to sleep and never waking up (which is kind of the same thing but not really lol) anyway. Omg I remember watching the special on gay marriages and seeing like those people so inn love and like fighting for the right to spend the rest of their lives together and having something like in writing to express how they just want to spend the rest of their lives together. It was so amazing to see, just how marriage has become. Like people just marrying people b/c their afraid of dieing alone or for money or like all those stupid reasons. It kind of makes me sad. But I want something more special. I want to find that special person. My soul mate. Omg I read this thing, this book and it was about like ok I forgot, but at the end she wrote this thing on soul mates and omg I so believe. Before kind of didn’t believe in “soul mates” but I do now. I believe that there is someone out there that god made just for you. And that person could be your best friend, you now boyfriend, some guy like 12 years younger than you, someone twice your age, etc. and I believe that if you take your time and don’t rush things you will find them. But it’s just that you don’t get a lot of time to put things together. You get like 10-20 years. Most people, by their 30’s, want to be having children and getting married and having a career, etc,. And sometimes it doesn’t work that way so they rush and things just go really bad. I think people should just take their time. Ok anyway. Wow this could have been an entry. Ok ill count this as my bog entry for today. Lol. In fact I think I’m going to spell check this and then make it my entry for today and then just leave you a comment saying that my comment is on my blog. Um ok. Well then ttyl anisa. Lol. I guess.
