oh "pants, sweaters and shoes oh my" was my 100th post. thats kind of cool. though i cant seem to get in the mood to be happy about it. im finding trouble really finding any happy thoughts right now. my whole day has been a total complete horrible mess. my whole day is ruined. i spent half of it at a police station b/c rah rah had to have his footbal game in a freaking white town. fuck. i spent about 5 hours in that station doing nothing, worrying about what was going to happen to my mother, agitated by my brother and his friend, and tired as hell b/c i got up early for this shit. then after that i was kind of excited b/c then my day would be better b/c i was going to armandos surprise b-day. but oh well, that fell through. now im sitting here dressed up annoyed and upset. i really just wanted to spend the rest of this year on a happy note. with happy affirmations, and thoughts, and happy events. and the sadest art was that my "happy" new life was supposed to start today. im desperatly trying to hold onto any happy things that i can muster. im just quite upset and refusing to let these tears fall from my eyes.i need to think of something that could possibly brighten my day.
...thats all
