Movie Night

so anisa is supposed to be having a movie night. shes been talking about it for a while and i have been kinda of excited about it. though, lately i kinda dont wanna go. i mean its probably not happening since anisa is going to spening the day with armando. so we cant have it then. and shes thinking of changing it to sunday but if she does that karina can't come. even if we have it and everyone comes, im gonna feel out of place. i've been to enough parties where it was anisa and armando, karina and her boyfriend, and then me. i already know how it makes me feel and i already know that i dont like putting my self in that situation. i always end up getting upset. i honestly do not need to be puting myself in a situation that is going to make me feel bad.

i dont think i would have had as much fun if it wasn't for robert and marcos, at stephanies cook out. i hung out with karina most of the time but after a certain point she started acting spaced out and you could tell she was thinking about her boyfriend. i'm not really talking to jesse like that in theses past days. i dont know. i think hes mad at me. but i dont know... who cares. and im not gonna have someone like robert or marcos there to keep me from being bored or upset. i dont know. and im kinda afraid to go and it just be me, anisa, armando, karina, her boyfriend, and jesse. cause i know in the end ill be hanging with jesse and we haven't hung out that much since everything went down. and i dont know where his head is at. but oh well. i gotta do my debate research.

...and thats all i have to say