theres alot of bad habits i've been falling back on to. and lately its all just been this big oh you need to fix your bad habits in order to become a better person. my techers have been saying the same thing and the stars are even telling me so. each day im reminded of how much i need to change. i have been trying though. i've been trying to talk about my feelings more lately and about things going on in my life to the ppl around me. b/c in order for me to be able to lean on those who i love when im down and out i must keep them in tuned with my life. if they dont know whats going on they wont know how to help me. i have to stop trying to fix everything all by myself. if i need help i need help. and when i do need help i need to be able to be able to fall on my "one accord"(i'll get to that in a minuite).
i really just need to improve myself. i've been praying to God to help me forgive those who have hurt me in the past and have made me feel lonely. and i need to deal with whats making me feel certain ways. and i really need to improve my confidence and self esteem.and according to my horoscope the stars are supposedly going to boost my confidence and will power. so thats pleasant to hear. but i dont expect to just wake up and everything to be better. i cant just rid years of having a poor attitude about myself but you know what even though i may not be the prettiest girl ever i still think i can work on myself and feel better about myself.
anyway on sunday i went to church. i go to abigails church (yea and abby you should have been in church hopefully you did make it to a church ;) hope you had fun. hope to see you next week) ok so the preacher was talking about one accord and being in one accord. and how we should keep ourselves with ppl who share the same beliefs and support us. he said soethign that made me so.... i dont know. he said how when we are hurting how we should put our selves with ppl who love and care, and understand and are willing to carry our burdens for us....and are willing to carry our burdens for us. i dont know about you but how many people are willing to carry your burdens. i can only think of a few and those ppl are the ppl i call my closest friends. but even they, im not sure, are willing to carry all my burdens. i dont know. all i know if for me to expect that from my friends and family i must first give it to them. well anyway then he ended with these verses:
i really just need to improve myself. i've been praying to God to help me forgive those who have hurt me in the past and have made me feel lonely. and i need to deal with whats making me feel certain ways. and i really need to improve my confidence and self esteem.and according to my horoscope the stars are supposedly going to boost my confidence and will power. so thats pleasant to hear. but i dont expect to just wake up and everything to be better. i cant just rid years of having a poor attitude about myself but you know what even though i may not be the prettiest girl ever i still think i can work on myself and feel better about myself.
anyway on sunday i went to church. i go to abigails church (yea and abby you should have been in church hopefully you did make it to a church ;) hope you had fun. hope to see you next week) ok so the preacher was talking about one accord and being in one accord. and how we should keep ourselves with ppl who share the same beliefs and support us. he said soethign that made me so.... i dont know. he said how when we are hurting how we should put our selves with ppl who love and care, and understand and are willing to carry our burdens for us....and are willing to carry our burdens for us. i dont know about you but how many people are willing to carry your burdens. i can only think of a few and those ppl are the ppl i call my closest friends. but even they, im not sure, are willing to carry all my burdens. i dont know. all i know if for me to expect that from my friends and family i must first give it to them. well anyway then he ended with these verses:
"6And the crowds with one accord paid attention to what was being said by Philip when they heard him and saw the signs that he did. 7For unclean spirits came out of many who were possessed, crying with a loud voice, and many who were paralyzed or lame were healed. 8So there was much joy in that city."
-Acts 8:6-8
-Acts 8:6-8
yea, alot of you may not be religious. im just recently trying to become religious. i dont know. i just felt a need to be closer to God. i was going through things that only He could help me sort out. i just wanted to surround myself with ppl "with one accord" so i could feel better. and i am thankful for abby introducing her church to me and for all my friends who support me. those verses just kinda remind me of what i was searchin for and what i found. and one of the main reasons im doing better now.
...and thats all i have to say
