Moving

so it's officially time to move and i must say, i am not as joyous as i thought i might be. i mean i so want to be back in new brunswick but i have come to enjoy my stay here. its been the experience that i think ive needed in my life. i have grown and learned more about the world around me than in the twelve years that i have lived anywhere else. i must admit that i had my ups and downs with this place but i have grown to find the benifit of this place and i am happy that i have had the chance to live here.

i have said before, to those who read my blog before this, that the fact that i have moved so many times over the fourteen years of my existance. it has given me that chance to experience things that so many ppl out there may never experience because they had the misfortune of being in one place their whole lives and not being able to see the world around them. though there are annoying things to moving. packing. the biggest and probably only really really annoying thing there is. i have been packing so much that i hate the site of my own things. i took every peice of clothing that i had in my bolonging and washed it. i packed away my nick nacks and my shoes, my teddy, and my booze (well not really, just thought it rhymed.lol.) and im off to see the wizard. lol.

i must say, i do look forward to being with my old friends again. i look forward to starting new. though i dont know quite where or how to start. i'm going to miss this place. and i bless all the ppl here (ha. i got kinda religious or what ever there). so farewell irvington, and may you continue to bring joy to the people who pass through, in your own very very very unique way of course. i feel kind of braver then any of my other friends. i have always felt kind of, lets say i always felt that my skin may have not been as tough as theirs, but tell me.... would you honestly have the gusts to go to irvington high. if you answered yes, all i have to say to you is "oh please", "yeah right", and "give me a break"

im not even in school right now because of some gang inisiation thats going on. omg. there were about 10 to 15 kids, half of them with bats, some of them with knifes, all beating the shit out of each ohter. i am so happy i didn't decide to walk home or i would have been right there in the middle of everything. and down the block a few weeks ago some crazy lady ran over this man. they must have been arguing or whatever. and to think this little girl from the suburbs, in the middle of all this. see i've experienced it all.lol. tell me if you can or have done the same.

yup i have to say i have experienced so much. the suburbs. the ghetto. being homeless. living in a shelter. having it all. having nothing at all. living in an expensive apartment and driving a lexus and being comfortable. to having a two door honda and living in that and not being so comfortable. i must say i've come a long way. and i feel so blessed. and i am so humble. and through everything, i never blamed anyone, never gave my mom a hard time about the situation (even when we were living in the car), and never feeling that god has cursed me (being religious again but let me just have this moment).

i have to think god for honestly being there and watching over me, my mom, and my brother. i must thank him from the bottom of my heart for holding me and my moms hand, when she was being a victim of domestic violence (i hate my brothers father). i must thank god for walking beside us and blessing us when times where so so hard and when they were so so great. thanks.

...god bless irvington and all those who live here.

...and thats all i have to say

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Heres To You Micheal (my last entry in Micheal)

Saturday Night, October 16,2004

Things just haven't been going my way. Theres so many things i can't change. Im going crazy about it.

I knew by the way today was going, it wasn't going to be the best day that i'll have. I woke up just wanting comfort, trying to shut out all the things that's been annoying me, knowing that i cant change anything. All i had was Thomas, Jerry, and you. So i put on Thomas, turned up Jerry, and laid there wanting to hold you, but feeling I shouldn't. I haven't held you since June.

I just hit my breaking point. tired and annoyed and lazy, with things to do that i have to do. This stuff refusing to be washed off my face beacuase i left it on to long, things falling out the cabinet as i'm trying to take the aluminum foil out to wrap the food with, and the static in my radio preventing me from enjoying "i've got to prase you like i should." i juat knelt down and cried, repeating "just dont statis, please, just dont static", and crying till my head hurt.

now this is my last entry in you and i'm like i am. i'm a complete mess and i need someone to guide me and your the only one it seems i can turn to. i'm sure your flattered but feel sorry for me. but anyway, i need guidence but i only have the otherside of this page left in you.

now i know why i couldn't bear to touch you after your pages started running out. i want to end you happily. i want to write a few lyrics that always make me happy; i hope i can remember some...for you.

"you've been the only thing thats right, in all i've done"

"every breath that is in you is in your lungs is a tiny little gift to me is a tiny little gift to me"

"my friends are so depressed, i feel the question of your lonliness, confide... cause ill be on your side, you know i will, you know i will"

"and i know one thing is true, that we are just as cool, and coool kids, well they belong, together"

"i'm so happy, cause today i found my friends, their in my head" THANKS FOR BEING THERE

saturday night i fell asleep with Micheal in my arms

and tears down my face. i think thats all i have to say...

Religion PT.1

(from now on all lowercase.ok back to what i wanted to say). anyway, religious is a very touchy subject, because there are ppl out there realy religious and live by religion, there are ppl who dont believe in it all that much, and there are ppl like me i between. i believe in God, and Jesus and preying , and even going ot church. but the thing about church is that ppl mistreat it sooo much. i used to die to go to church, just to be there among ppl who believed in god and were teaching his teachings. but i have grown and seen how ppl really try to fuck up that whole experience, by trying to rob ppl, misteaching religion, and basically taking advantage of the poor souls like myself who just want to be there for the experience and teachings.

it hurts to think that... well nvm. i really dont want to get into anything with my friends or their beliefs. i think that ppl lie. its in their nature to do so. and they cant change. so my thing is that if ppl lie now, then they lied back then too. to get ppl to believe in them, to give ppl something to believe in. and ppl, i think , wrote the bible in order to give those ppl something to believe in, to help them though life (a very caring thing). and they may have printed mistruths in the bible to do so, mabey not even on purpose. think about it, ppl hear truths and turn them around and so it everyday. to me thats human nature. all about the apples.lol. (you may have not got that, if you didn't please disregard it b/c i dont think i'll be explainig it anytime soon).

i believe in God. that there is something out there who has made all that posibble. mabey b/c of my need of guidence as a human or b/c i cant bring myself to not believe it (hey i went to catholic school for about five to six years) or b/c in my heart i believe its true and that that is my own belief. i believe in preying and taking time out of your life to show him your appriciation. (spelled it wrong) i already told you my beliefs about church. and i think that is my belief. like some ppl believe in many gods, you cant go to them and say "you stupid son of a @@@@@, there is only one god you idiot". you wouldn't do that to ppl. hey ppl WWJD.lol. if you live by that you wouldn't do that or loo down on ppl who dont believe in religion at all. i'm sorry to add tv into this but like in americas top model, and those holier than thou ppl were looking down on those who didn't believe in that. (another reason why i dont go to church, b/c of ppl like that. and you cant tell me there isn't at least one at every single church) that is not what Jesus would do. not. at. all.

thats what i believe. what do you believe. post comments if you want. and please no arguing or telling ppl that what they believ is wrong. this comment for this entry is going to be solely for the purpose of sharing your beliefs. you may disagree but it is NOT your place to say so. now if you think that you can post your beliefs without being prejudice, then do so. show ppl that there all kinds of beliefs. and i repeat DO NOT make others feel like they are wrong about what they believe. whether your religious or not you should know right from wrong and know that that is wrong. if you do do so then i am sorry any comments that you post wont ever be shown on this blog. dag i have to find a better consequence.lol.

and thats all i have to say.....

Religion Pt 2

today i talked about my religious beliefs with too friends of mine. i am showing each convers to you now.

CrMlKiS1289: ok
CrMlKiS1289: my mom making me go to church
CrMlKiS1289: lol
brownprincess555: lol
brownprincess555: your going?
CrMlKiS1289: i have 2
brownprincess555: when now?
CrMlKiS1289: no
brownprincess555: on a wednesday?
brownprincess555: aren't churches for sundays
CrMlKiS1289: no its revival
brownprincess555: um ok
brownprincess555: lol
brownprincess555: when you have to go?
CrMlKiS1289: at 7
brownprincess555: oh
brownprincess555: as you know i dont go to church
brownprincess555: my mom doesn't believe in it
CrMlKiS1289: what in church
brownprincess555: i used to love going to church
brownprincess555: but now i understand why my mom doesn't like it
CrMlKiS1289: yea
brownprincess555: and i dont like it either
brownprincess555: plus i dont believe in the bible
brownprincess555: i believe in god and jesus
brownprincess555: but i dont believe in the bible
brownprincess555: cause it was written by ppl
brownprincess555: and ppl are desprate liars
CrMlKiS1289: lol wow
brownprincess555: and im sure ppl were desperate liars back then
brownprincess555: also
brownprincess555: i think my mom believes in the bible though
brownprincess555: i just dont
brownprincess555: i believe in preying
CrMlKiS1289: oh ok
CrMlKiS1289: lol
CrMlKiS1289: yea
brownprincess555: and god and stuff
brownprincess555: but not the bible cause ppl cant be trusted
brownprincess555: and not church
CrMlKiS1289: lol
CrMlKiS1289: yea
brownprincess555: cause um it teaches the bible
CrMlKiS1289: ppl in church cant be neither
brownprincess555: plus ppl take advantage of churches
brownprincess555: and i think its sick
brownprincess555: sick desperate ppl
brownprincess555: liars
brownprincess555: but when i grow up im gonna do what my mom did with me
CrMlKiS1289: and they make it seem like u have to go to church to go to heaven, or that being gay is wrong and all this stuff
CrMlKiS1289: which is not true
brownprincess555: and give me a choice to believe wat i want
brownprincess555: yea
brownprincess555: thats another reason why i dont like churches
brownprincess555: they are full of desperate ppl liars
CrMlKiS1289: being gay is not right, but god isnt going to hold that against you
brownprincess555: lol
brownprincess555: yea
CrMlKiS1289: and ur not going to hell
brownprincess555: they make god sound so mean
CrMlKiS1289 : yea
brownprincess555: and i think thats wrong
CrMlKiS1289 : god is so patient
brownprincess555: and i dont believe in heaven and hell
brownprincess555: i think its another way for those desperate liar humans
CrMlKiS1289: lol
brownprincess555: to scare us into buying into what they say
brownprincess555: and thats how they got everyone to believe in the bible
brownprincess555: like if you dont read this
brownprincess555: your going ot hell
CrMlKiS1289 : lol yea
brownprincess555: and there is a hell
brownprincess555: and you are going to it
CrMlKiS1289 : yea
....(inimportant things were taking out here)
brownprincess555: b/c i think ppl lie
brownprincess555: its not that i dont believe in god and jesus or even the church
brownprincess555: my thing with the church is how ppl mistreat it
CrMlKiS1289 : yea
brownprincess555: and my thing with the bible is that its something to read
brownprincess555: and understand
brownprincess555: but after you read it and understand
brownprincess555: you question its truths
brownprincess555: like with every thing
CrMlKiS1289 : yea
brownprincess555: cause i think that there isno solid proof to these things
brownprincess555: kinda like in south park
CrMlKiS1289 : lol
brownprincess555: when they did the thing about some religion
brownprincess555: and they were saying what they believed
brownprincess555: and ppl looking insaw it for what it was
brownprincess555: crack pot
CrMlKiS1289 : lol
brownprincess555: a guy talking in a hat
brownprincess555: and saying all these things
brownprincess555: that had noproof
brownprincess555: and the everyone could tell the guy was crazy
CrMlKiS1289 : lol

now this is a convers i had with my other friend

brownprincess555: hey abby you here?
LovelyFlame732: heyy!
LovelyFlame732: waddup??
brownprincess555: hey!!
LovelyFlame732: lol
brownprincess555: talking to anisa about my religious beliefs
LovelyFlame732: oh relle
LovelyFlame732: u r an interesting one shanae
brownprincess555: her mom is making her go to church
LovelyFlame732: oh relle thas good
brownprincess555: i didn't know there was church on wednesday
LovelyFlame732: evryone needs it
LovelyFlame732: haha
LovelyFlame732: me either
brownprincess555: but anyway i was telling her how i dont believe in church and the bible
brownprincess555: but that i do believe in god and jesus and preying
brownprincess555: and being good not only for yourself but for the holy spirit that breathed life into you
LovelyFlame732: woahhh...dont let me get into that...
LovelyFlame732: if you believe in God, you should believe in the Bible and church b/c it all comes together in a way
brownprincess555: i think the reason i dont believe in churches and the bible is because i dont believe in ppl
LovelyFlame732: wen u go to church, ur giving back to God for everything he's doen for you
brownprincess555: i think they are desperate liars
brownprincess555: so do you when preying
brownprincess555: yea i think i rather prey to him and thank him at home
brownprincess555: then go to a room full of ppl
brownprincess555: cause as you know
LovelyFlame732: no, because that's just something you can do whenever..going to church is something you take a moment of your time for
brownprincess555: i dont like ppl all that much
LovelyFlame732: so it is different
brownprincess555: unless you've proven to me your not a desperate liar
brownprincess555: yea i understand what your saying
brownprincess555: and thats what i believe
LovelyFlame732: why do you think everyones a desperate liar?
brownprincess555: church is a place you go
brownprincess555: and take time out of your life
brownprincess555: to show god you appriciate him
LovelyFlame732: and you do it for God
brownprincess555: but the way they have made chiurches
brownprincess555: and the way ppl mistreat churches
brownprincess555: i think is wrong
LovelyFlame732: if you read the Bible, all these things you're questioning would never evn cross your mind
brownprincess555: anf thats why i dont want to be a part of it unless i find a church that is not like that
brownprincess555: you know what im saying?
LovelyFlame732: the Bible is the guide to life, and that's why you just cant believe in God w/o the Bible its just too incomplete
brownprincess555: read what i just wrote
LovelyFlame732: i did
brownprincess555: ok i dont believe in the bible
LovelyFlame732: brb
LovelyFlame732: srry
brownprincess555: b/c i dont believe in ppl
brownprincess555: and ppl wrote the bible
brownprincess555: and sometimes ppl lie
LovelyFlame732: soo srry
LovelyFlame732: bacc
LovelyFlame732: i had to get the door
brownprincess555: i hope your not mad or frustrated at me
LovelyFlame732: noo its jus theres soo much i wanna say yet i cant find the right wirds right now
brownprincess555: yea
brownprincess555: im writing a entry about it
brownprincess555: lol
LovelyFlame732: lol
LovelyFlame732: awesome
LovelyFlame732: look, all people lie sumtimes in their life
LovelyFlame732: thas not 2 say the whole the whole world is that way
LovelyFlame732: and to not believe in the Bible for sumthin like that is kinda ridiculous
brownprincess555: no i think if ppl lie now
LovelyFlame732: cause seriously, its said Moses wrote the Bible, do u relle think he'd lie about sumthin like that
LovelyFlame732: ten times out of ten pple lied back then
brownprincess555: everyone lies
brownprincess555: you cant tell me they dont
brownprincess555: i know you've lied once or twice in your life
LovelyFlame732: i just said that
LovelyFlame732: but im saying, you cant judge everyone because of what some people do
brownprincess555: no you also said LovelyFlame732: thas not 2 say the whole the whole world is that way
LovelyFlame732: there are eniugh good people out there to have enough faith in the human race
LovelyFlame732: ye i knoe
brownprincess555: but they lie too sometimes
LovelyFlame732: thas not 2 say the whole world lies
brownprincess555: everyone lies
LovelyFlame732: ye SOMETIMES
brownprincess555: b/c liing comes with caring
LovelyFlame732: but jus b/c tehy do dont go and make all these assumtpions
brownprincess555: most of the time you lie
LovelyFlame732: cause youre one of those people
LovelyFlame732: do you hate yourself?
brownprincess555: is becuas eyou care about that person
brownprincess555: and you dont want to hurt them
brownprincess555: and unless you dont care about anyone anywhere then mabey you might tell the truth all the time
brownprincess555: and i never said i hated ppl
brownprincess555: where did you et that?
LovelyFlame732: lying is apart of life...people are always going to do it so ou might as well except it and not block people out for things like that
LovelyFlame732: because i dont think it will be changing anytime soon
brownprincess555: where did you get that i plan on blocking ppl out?
brownprincess555: lol
brownprincess555: where are you getting these stuff
LovelyFlame732: no im sayin, like you dont like ppl for it
LovelyFlame732: nvm w/e
brownprincess555: yea i dont like that ppl lie
brownprincess555: but u cant hate ppl for doing something in their nature
LovelyFlame732: shanae....trust me...if you were more religiously inclined and had a strong faith, you wouldnt have to question this topic
LovelyFlame732: I know b/c i myself and strong in my faith
brownprincess555: who said that im not strong in faith?
LovelyFlame732: its hard to understand but, idk...
LovelyFlame732: what your saying
brownprincess555: and there was a time when i was "religious incline" or whatever too
LovelyFlame732: about not wanting to go to church and what not
brownprincess555: but ive grown and opened my eyes to other posibilities
brownprincess555: and the fact that everything isn't true
brownprincess555: b/c ppl LIE
LovelyFlame732: ye shanae, its not like you can be w/ God once and thas it you're in
LovelyFlame732: you have to be faithful
LovelyFlame732: ur jus not gettin it shanae
LovelyFlame732: im srry
LovelyFlame732: y is it soo important that ppl lie
LovelyFlame732: seriously
LovelyFlame732: wut is it doing to u
LovelyFlame732: you said youself EVRYONE does it, so what's the problem? That;s how it is sorryy...
LovelyFlame732: Through faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God
LovelyFlame732: meaning God might as well have written the Bible himself

Kay is back!! Yea!!

Well I am going to have to go to sleep soon, I've been having the worst time sleeping. And though I dont want this to be a long entry I have a feeling it will be.lol. Anyway my best friend Kay is back online. which is great cause i get to talk to her. I moved away and now I hardly get a chance to talk to her, and when I did... I do have to say I acted like a total bitch (excuse my language). But the time away was cool, I went through soem things when she was gone 9that have not much to do with her), that if shes reading I really dont want to bother you with.And i was able to get myself situated (if i might say)

Many people say that you dont miss things till there gone. So true, and has been for most of my life. But I think you come to apreasiate things more when they are away too. She is one of my closest friends, and right now I am really coming to realize how valuable that is to me. I know that there is going to come a time when we stop talking all together (like all my other friends I've moved away from), and it's important to stay in touch as much as I can with my friends: anisa, karina, abby, pearl, and merlin (omg i really have to call her just at least to say hi, I miss her soooo much). Right now I just really want to cherish my friendships, because they are so so important to me. And i just want to say....Kay is back. oh Kay is back. KAY IS BA-BA-BAAACK!!!!

and thats all i have to say.lol......

Comments

Hey, just saying that I'm putting the comments on. Funny how when they were on nobody cared. Guess it's true, you dont miss something till its gone. (or something like that-lol) Hope to see comments from now on. For those who wanted to comment b4 but couldn't becuase there was not alot you could say on my tag board or whatever, heres a little present from me to you. Well... its kinda like a present.lol. see you guys later. luv ya.

and thats all I have to say....

Oh the stereotypes (Reply)

I was reading this blog (can find it under the list of blogs i read) and this guy had an entry entitled "Oh the stereotypes". It was basically about the stereotypes we girls usually put on the boys. Now I always talk about the sterotypes men and basically society put on us girls. But i never came to think about the stereotypes that we girls put on boys.

Though most are true, and have been scientifically proven.lol. Just becuase the scientist say that the part of the male brain that controls his sexual urges and how much he thinks about sex is larger than the females, doesn't mean we girls should start judging every male by that information. Just becuase statistics show that boys think about sex every 15 seconds, doesn't mean we should judge them by that either. Though, as humans, it is in our nature to judge and characterize.

I hate being judged or characterized. But obviously we can't help it. And thats life (just figure out what you can fix about it and what you cant). We look at each other and form opinions about one another without even saying a word to each other. Its kind of a form of protection. If we sense that someone may have something wrong with them, then we steer away from them.

But how will you ever know if what you've assumed is correct without talkign to them or getting to know them, you may be asking. But think of this, what if you sensed something was wrong with someone, got to know them, then realized you were right but realized it too late. Poeple have a tendancy to lie, to hide the truth about things, about themselves.

My mom lives by something, that if her soul feels that something is wrong then she goes with it, because her soul seems to sense something that she may not see at first. Its helped her, and i live by it too, and it helps me. Mabey that feeling that our soul or conscience is sending off is kind of like that feeling that animals get when something bad is about to happen.

Yes, stereotypes are evil.lol. But think about it, where would we be without them. Where would we be without those "signs that someone might be a serial killer", or those "signs that she/he might be the one for you". Like I say all the time, we humans need something to believe in, something to trust in. I think stereotypes is just that.

and thats all i have to say....

Cult or Religion (Whats the difference?)

OK, let me streight to the point so you can think about what I'm about to say. Cults. Religions. Whats the difference between the two. They both are based on our constant need, as humans, for something to believe in and worship. For an answer to what we are to do with this difficult thing we have in our posession. Life. The constant rules for what exactly to do to get into that "better place", that "after life", that "eternal life".

Now I'm not saying that cults are good or that I am against religion. All I'm saying is, what makes a cult a cult and religion a religion. Think about it, many times when we think about cults, we think about large groups of people sacrifising themselves for something they were foolish to believe in. We think of people being foolish to follow someone and believe in what they say, enough to sacrafies their lives. But isn't that what we do for religion. We base our lives on a book written many many many years ago. We believe in someone who we have never seen, and we dont even know if he is human. We have given our lives to this notion that if we live our lives by "the great book" that we will be blessed in our life to come. We are sacrifiesing our lives everyday. Living with constant fear of that notion of "heaven" and "hell". ( Some people dont believe in those two things, so to be as correct as possible of everything I'm saying, becuase this is a really contriversal topic -religion-, i have used quotations) Living with that constant fear of "if i do this then mabey i wont be blessed in my 'afterlife'".

Many look at the Egyptains and laugh about the fact that they would bury themselves with their belongings, for use in the "afterlife". But we are kind of doing the same thing. We are basing our lives on the "afterlife", you know. Think about the Mayans. They used to sacrifies humans and animals for their gods. If that way of religion was here today, what would that group of people be called but a cult. Mabey I'm wrong. I do believe I may be wrong about some of the things I've said, but I want a kind of understanding...

If you could eliminate something(s) in order to make the world a better place, what would you eliminate? Me, I would elimanate religion and money. Both causes us to worry, and thats the last thing we have to do. We are already worried about life, which has brought about these two things. But in that worrying , we just formed more things to worry about (which we do tend to do alot). Though, mabey I'll take back the answer to the question I just asked. Instead, I would like to eliminate that constant worry about life. That constant worry that we ill mess it up, or that someone else would mess it up. I would like to eliminate good and bad. That would get rid of "heaven" and "hell" wouldn't it. Then we would be able to live our lives. Without worry.

Ok. I wrote more than I wanted to. :)

and thats all i have to say...

Seriously

These past few months I've been so serious. I dont really know why. Mabey its because I've grown, or mabey its because I'm out of school, or mabey its beacuase Karina was a bad imfluence on me and brought out my crazy side.lol. But either way I've been more serious then I've ever been in my life. I think thats another way my friendships are distancing. I'm not as crazy as I've been, and where does that put me and my two friends that i was always crazy with?

So much has changed with me. Highschool is a big example. I'm not as talkative and I'm really soft spoken there. Mabey cause I'm out of my element and I'm taking percautions. Mabey thats why I've been acting the way I have in general. I'm out of my element. But then again where is my element.

When i moved to New Brunswick I was sure that wasn't my element and i would hate it, but i found a way to leave with great experiences and great friends. I can only hope that for Irvington. I guess i really dont have an element. Sayreville to me would be my safest bet. Mainly because im used to that place. Its built something in my heart.

Well... getting off the point slightly. I'm sick of thinking of ways why I feel distanced. I am freakin distanced. So..... mabey today I'll have fries for lunch instead of pizza. Though that pizza feels me up. Ok, thats it, thats what i want to work on. I want to work on steering away from my safe spot, and try new things. I am up for any new experiences put out there for me. But what about the experiences i can make for myself.

and thats all i have to say....

Alien Territory

Today in creative writing we read this short story by Margaret Atwood called Alien Territory. It was pretty much devised out of mutiple essays. Here is my favorite of the essays. Tell me what you think about it.

"The history of war is a history of killed bodies. That's what war is: bodies killing other bodies, bodies being killed.
Some of the bodies being killed are those of women and children, a side effect, as you might say. Fallout, shrapnel, napalm, rape and skewering, antipersonnel devices. But most of the killed bodies are men. So are most of those doing the killing.
Why do men want to kill the bodies of other men? Women don't want to kill the bodies of other women. By and large. As far as we know.
Here are some traditional reasons: Loot. Territory. Lust for power. Hormones. Andrenaline high. Rage. God. Flag. Honor. Righteous anger. Revenge. Opression. Slavery. Starvation. Defense of one's life. Love; or, a desire to protect the women and children. From what? From the bodies of other men.
What men are most afraid of is not lions, not snakes, not the dark, not women. Not anymore. What men are most afraid of is the body of another man.
Men's bodies are the most dangerous things on earth."

and thats all I have to say....

LEO

Leo

Article in black. My comments are in red.

Your sign is that of dramatic Leo, the fifth sign of the zodiac, and the sign of generosity and nobility. It stands for self-expression and the unfolding of the internal power principle. Generous and self-aware, you are truly king of the jungle.

The Sun, defines the dominant traits of your personality and your basic character. This makes you a self-assured, magnanimous (yea, i am like that) , and buoyant person (omg if someone else calls me that, or jolly, or perky.lol) who enjoys being the center of attention (yea, but i thought everyone was like that) , and others often see you as invincible, because your courage and charisma are so impressive. (i dont quite know about that)

Your sign is the second of the fire signs, which makes you a strong-willed (yea i am strong-willed when it comes to me and my future and my wants and needs)and courageous individual, with great leadership qualities. Your aura radiates magnetism and dignity like the rays around the sun.

You rule the fifth house of the horoscope, which is the section associated with pleasure, creativity, and play. This includes romance, children, gambling and speculation, hobbies, sports, fun and games. Your desire to live out your emotions is powerful (omg, so true), and you constantly seek new ways of self-expression. (omg omg, so so so so so true)

The mode of a Leo is fixed, which means that you are passive in your need for admiration, expecting others to naturally notice and approach you (yea, i do). You enjoy stability and comfort, and are generous in sharing it with others. (yea, i do try to comfort others, and try to be there for them and help them sort out things)

Your strengths, dear Leo, lie in your open-minded (omg, abby was saying the same thing a few days ago; man shes smart.lol.) and extremely faithful nature. You tend to act as the protector of the downtrodden, and when taking sides, most often root for the underdog. (yea) In relationships, you are sincere, genuine, and trusting, (yea i am, expecially if i really like you or think highly of you) because you hold high ethical standards. (omg yea i do)

However, even you have weaknesses, dear Leo! At times, you have a tendency to become vain and egocentric (omg yea i do, expecially evident lately), and get anxious and hypersensitive when you don't get the attention you want (omg, i think thats what has been going on lately too). If you are fishing for compliments and get a dissatisfying result, you compensate by displaying arrogance, and are very capable of delivering a grandiose and exaggerated performance. (I deliver a grandiose [omg that used to be my word, wheres pearl when you need her.lol.] and exaggerated performance when i stub my toe on something.lol. Let alone when i dont get what i want.lol.)

and thats all I have to say...