I think I may want to go on a small hiatus. I'm not feeling up to writing in here that much. Though, no one really reads anything that I write here anyway. I don’t even know why I'm writing this cause no ones going to read it. I think for the rest of the summer, I'm just going to stay at home and work on becoming a better person. Something tat others might want to think about but.... Anyway, with Anisa leaving, there isn't anyone I would really like to hang out with here. I mean I don't know what is up with Karina.... Anyway, so I'm going to stay at home and work on being the person I want to be. I have been saying to my self how I need to take time for my self and stop trying to be there for everyone one else. I mean, when I need people to be there for me, where were they? Nowhere. I need to work on being a happy person and I cant do that when I have people around me that just aren't the best people to be associating myself with. I need time to think about my life. I'm beginning to get that ever-growing need for change again. I don’t feel like moving. I can't move away from the things that make me uncomfortable. I need to learn how to deal. When I come out, things will be different. People grow and change, sometimes for the good and in some cases some for the bad, crazy and desperate. Wow. Being away, I started to change and now I just need to set aside time to finish. I love you all, even those who doubt me as a friend. Just knowing that there is no way that I could do what “a certain someone” has done to me, makes me feel better. I don’t care about what you think of me or what you "think" I've done. Sometimes instead of pointing out all the wrong others have done to you, you may want to point out all the wrong you have done to others. A true friend would care about her other friends (old and new). I just hope that I have never done what others have done to me. I hope I never put someone in front of supposed friends. Right now all we have is each other, and “some people” might want to think twice before (excuse my language) “shitting” on supposed friends. Knowing that somewhere along the line I may have done “something” to hurt others and that I am ready to analyze and the take the blame for my actions is what keeps me happy and what helps me wait for a day when you wont have to question me. I'm not like other people, though you may doubt it, I do care. And if you keep treating me the way you do, you may lose the only person who really does honestly care.
...And, as of now, that’s all I have to say
