well well well...yesterday i went to the mall with yrwin, elmo, nabor, armando and anisa. i had quite alot of fun though my stomach started hurting (damn waffles)lol anyway, today i took out my hair cause it was looking a mess. and now i look like a hot mess. i need to wash my hair. so today im gonna stay at home. its not like im leaving the house. plus ive noticed no one ever comes to my house to just see me. its always a meeting place. but thats alright. i didn't know that ppl were actually excited about my birthday. i haven't put any thought into what i want b/c mostly i have too much going on. my bros b-day is coming up and only three days later will be mine. oh and all you ppl better come to my bros b-day. my moms kinda counting on you guys to come cause i told her you guys would. anyway. i have no idea what i want to do for my b-day. probably nothing. the closer i get to my b-day the more i dont want to do anything. again i have no ideas. i wanted a spa thing but forget that its pretty too late for something like that. i wanted something like just going to the mall and hanging out. mostly b/c nothing goes on on my b-day anyway. i wanted like a party but where would i put it? i have no ideas. its not like b-day is that important. its just the day i was born and most of the time its like im not even here so i dont see the point. im really deciding to rethink this b-day thing. im gonna be leaving the program on my b-day and so i probably wont have time for anything anyway. all i want is a icecream cake (one i can eat all by myself) and probably some calls from ppl saying happy birthday. at least that will be more than what ive had the past 7 years. in fact i think the last time i had a party was when i was around 8 or 9. every other year i was either just eating cake or moving around or ppl just decided to forget about my b-day all together. my mom never forgets but i dont know. i guess ive never been a birthday person. though i would really like to have a party this year. oh well it looks like its nto going to happen unless i think of something ..fast.oh and if i do have a b-day party yes yrwin you can come. why would i leave you out? your one of my friends. and if i have a party (and when i say party i really dont mean party as in dancing and music and stuff, unless you guys have an idea of where i can do all that stuff)its probably just going to be a couple of my closest friends and just hanging out. im usually depressed on my b-day mabey this year will be different.
...and thats all i have to say
