Moving

so it's officially time to move and i must say, i am not as joyous as i thought i might be. i mean i so want to be back in new brunswick but i have come to enjoy my stay here. its been the experience that i think ive needed in my life. i have grown and learned more about the world around me than in the twelve years that i have lived anywhere else. i must admit that i had my ups and downs with this place but i have grown to find the benifit of this place and i am happy that i have had the chance to live here.

i have said before, to those who read my blog before this, that the fact that i have moved so many times over the fourteen years of my existance. it has given me that chance to experience things that so many ppl out there may never experience because they had the misfortune of being in one place their whole lives and not being able to see the world around them. though there are annoying things to moving. packing. the biggest and probably only really really annoying thing there is. i have been packing so much that i hate the site of my own things. i took every peice of clothing that i had in my bolonging and washed it. i packed away my nick nacks and my shoes, my teddy, and my booze (well not really, just thought it rhymed.lol.) and im off to see the wizard. lol.

i must say, i do look forward to being with my old friends again. i look forward to starting new. though i dont know quite where or how to start. i'm going to miss this place. and i bless all the ppl here (ha. i got kinda religious or what ever there). so farewell irvington, and may you continue to bring joy to the people who pass through, in your own very very very unique way of course. i feel kind of braver then any of my other friends. i have always felt kind of, lets say i always felt that my skin may have not been as tough as theirs, but tell me.... would you honestly have the gusts to go to irvington high. if you answered yes, all i have to say to you is "oh please", "yeah right", and "give me a break"

im not even in school right now because of some gang inisiation thats going on. omg. there were about 10 to 15 kids, half of them with bats, some of them with knifes, all beating the shit out of each ohter. i am so happy i didn't decide to walk home or i would have been right there in the middle of everything. and down the block a few weeks ago some crazy lady ran over this man. they must have been arguing or whatever. and to think this little girl from the suburbs, in the middle of all this. see i've experienced it all.lol. tell me if you can or have done the same.

yup i have to say i have experienced so much. the suburbs. the ghetto. being homeless. living in a shelter. having it all. having nothing at all. living in an expensive apartment and driving a lexus and being comfortable. to having a two door honda and living in that and not being so comfortable. i must say i've come a long way. and i feel so blessed. and i am so humble. and through everything, i never blamed anyone, never gave my mom a hard time about the situation (even when we were living in the car), and never feeling that god has cursed me (being religious again but let me just have this moment).

i have to think god for honestly being there and watching over me, my mom, and my brother. i must thank him from the bottom of my heart for holding me and my moms hand, when she was being a victim of domestic violence (i hate my brothers father). i must thank god for walking beside us and blessing us when times where so so hard and when they were so so great. thanks.

...god bless irvington and all those who live here.

...and thats all i have to say