Seriously

These past few months I've been so serious. I dont really know why. Mabey its because I've grown, or mabey its because I'm out of school, or mabey its beacuase Karina was a bad imfluence on me and brought out my crazy side.lol. But either way I've been more serious then I've ever been in my life. I think thats another way my friendships are distancing. I'm not as crazy as I've been, and where does that put me and my two friends that i was always crazy with?

So much has changed with me. Highschool is a big example. I'm not as talkative and I'm really soft spoken there. Mabey cause I'm out of my element and I'm taking percautions. Mabey thats why I've been acting the way I have in general. I'm out of my element. But then again where is my element.

When i moved to New Brunswick I was sure that wasn't my element and i would hate it, but i found a way to leave with great experiences and great friends. I can only hope that for Irvington. I guess i really dont have an element. Sayreville to me would be my safest bet. Mainly because im used to that place. Its built something in my heart.

Well... getting off the point slightly. I'm sick of thinking of ways why I feel distanced. I am freakin distanced. So..... mabey today I'll have fries for lunch instead of pizza. Though that pizza feels me up. Ok, thats it, thats what i want to work on. I want to work on steering away from my safe spot, and try new things. I am up for any new experiences put out there for me. But what about the experiences i can make for myself.

and thats all i have to say....