my hair is falling out. its spreading like cancer over the back of my skull. my eyelashes are pealing away, constantly in my eye. and for once i can admit i have no idea what to do. i stress to do everything, though i know it can't be done. theres this hurt, inside of me like i bruised my soul. this numb pain...
(Passage from my sort of journal/diary)
"I turned on Death Cab and laid I stared at the ceiling as I felt the tears fall out of my eyes I felt the first tear fall out of my left eye and fall behind my ear into my hair and as I thought of the pimple that would appear because of that salty tear passing along the wrong pore on my face and how my hair would friz from that single moist tear another tear fell from my right I just laid and stared feeling a numb hurt and more tears began to fall and soon I felt the need to cry but as I scrunched my face and held my eyes shut tight trying to force the tears out they wouldn't fall but when I opened them two fat tears fell from both eyes. And suddenly I felt that I was holding my breath even as I inhaled and exhaled I felt I was waiting waiting to exhale and for the first time I understood what it meant Waiting to Exhale"
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