A Crush

i knew. when i was sitting on karinas porce, babbling about some nonsence about me being upset about the other cast mates, and she hinted to me if it was really about him. i knew deep inside it was. but i couldn't put my finger on why. but i know it was because i knew it was probably my last chance. that afterwards it would be like this. it would be like de andre. though i didn't have a "mouthful of his name". i had something else. with signifigance the same.